today i am feeling sad. just sad. there’s nothing else to it. 
i struggle with separating loneliness and wanting to be alone.
and i feel like i have wanted to be left alone for too long that now everyone has given me what i’ve wanted.
and i’m lonely. 

people dream of having someone open up to them but i have found not one person willing to open themselves up. i have not found one person welcoming me to open up. i long for a closeness with someone. i long for someone to listen to me, to ask me, to let me talk it all through. i crave for that kind of intimacy.

and all this time, He has been here, waiting, waiting. 

you’re hurting everyone you love, all for one person you think you love. but time is love, i believe. and the people who have stood by you in your times of sorrow and despair, in your times of joy and peace, those people love you and you’re hurting them. and she’s known you for a period of a few months, and it’s not love, but you’re blinded and you’re hurting us.

it’s just…something. something that really frustrates me. something that you do. maybe not do. maybe, the fitting word is done. something you’ve done. you’ve hurt me. and you replaced me. and we have no friendship. and you completely pushed me away and treated our friendship like nothing.
yeah there’s definitely some pent up aggression there.
it’s definitely something you’ve done.